I am normally one of those people that are deeply opposed to change. I always feel so unstable and all of my routines are thrown up into the air. There have been seasons of change that only happened in my life because I knew God was leading me. Moving away to Master's Commission and moving here were two of the greatest challenges of my life.
To my suprise, this current change that I am facing is an uprooting of who I am rather than an uprooting of where I am. I am embracing this next change although it means there is a new season of finding out who I am as a woman and wife. I am learning who I am as a woman and an evangelist's wife. I am more importantly in search of who I am as a daughter of Christ. I find myself finding self-fulfillment with new things that were never in my life previously. I have a new relationship with a woman of God that is helping me to go down with my roots instead of just going out. I find myself entertaining new ideas such as motherhood and investments in self rather than always investing in everyone else.
I am beginning to cultivate my own beauty. At first, I was hesistant as God began showing me what He wants to do in me for the next season. I then realized that investing my time to create a better me will greatly enhance the fewer relationships that come my way. In my old state of mind, it was all about helping everyone the best I could, today, I strive to help myself so that during the times when I am with other women/girls, the fruit will be much greater.
I thank God today for change and am encouraged that change doesn't always mean something bad. Change sometimes means that you are selling yourself short and God loves us too much to let us put ourselves on the backburner.
I hope in some way this will encourage you to cultivate your own beauty.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
On Edge...
There has been an overwhelming time of testing that has come so abruptly! It totally caught us off guard. It has been wearing on us now for the past few weeks especially. We know that it is the devil, but it is very difficult to not let it effect our daily lives. I feel at times so grateful that my biggest trouble is finances and not cancer or terminal illness. I try sooo hard to stay positive throughout every stage of our life.
Lately, the pressures have buried us without us really even knowing it. I guess you find out how weighed down you are when you try to do something that requires your normal amount of strength and energy. Dustin and I have both been on edge, but I know it is going to get better.
I was in my car talking to my daddy. If you don't already know, I am a daddy's girl all the way! I love my mother dearly, but we are just too much alike sometimes! My dad assured me that he would never let anything too terrible happen to me without him coming to my aide. I'm soooo thankful that I have such a solid support system. Without the right parental foundation in my life, who knows where I would be. I have over the years adapted for myself my mothers HUGE heart, my daddy's know how and common sense, my mom's unwavering morals, and my dad's analytical yet incredibly deep mind. They have shown through example a successful marriage along with countless other things. As an adult now, I am super impressed at how they enabled me to spread my wings yet keep me under their protection! Thanks, mom and dad.
Anyhow, I was in my car talking to dad. The moment I hung up, I immediately started speaking in tongues which gave me chills up and down my entire body. I then started singing a song that I haven't heard in years. The words went, "I love You, I need You....though my world may fail, I'll never let You go. You've taken me from the mirey clay, set my feet upon a rock, now I know." I love when the Holy Spirit gives me a song.
I remember getting a song when I knew God told me to go to Master's Commission. At that point, I was fighting the call. As soon as I asked God why I should do this, He replied through a song that came out of my mouth. "That's why we praise Him, that's why we sing. That's why we offer Him our everything - cause He gave HIS everything......cause He gave his everything." That was a milemarker in my life.
Through this I think I've learned to realize that I am super sensitive when I'm carrying a burden that I am not supposed to have. It shouldn't be on my shoulders. God will never let anything happen to us that we can not handle. A prophet declared that we would face much warfare! I will gladly take this in exchange for God's promotion. I've also internalized that when you are treated ugly by others, it really is a reflection of what is going on on the inside of them.
Lately, the pressures have buried us without us really even knowing it. I guess you find out how weighed down you are when you try to do something that requires your normal amount of strength and energy. Dustin and I have both been on edge, but I know it is going to get better.
I was in my car talking to my daddy. If you don't already know, I am a daddy's girl all the way! I love my mother dearly, but we are just too much alike sometimes! My dad assured me that he would never let anything too terrible happen to me without him coming to my aide. I'm soooo thankful that I have such a solid support system. Without the right parental foundation in my life, who knows where I would be. I have over the years adapted for myself my mothers HUGE heart, my daddy's know how and common sense, my mom's unwavering morals, and my dad's analytical yet incredibly deep mind. They have shown through example a successful marriage along with countless other things. As an adult now, I am super impressed at how they enabled me to spread my wings yet keep me under their protection! Thanks, mom and dad.
Anyhow, I was in my car talking to dad. The moment I hung up, I immediately started speaking in tongues which gave me chills up and down my entire body. I then started singing a song that I haven't heard in years. The words went, "I love You, I need You....though my world may fail, I'll never let You go. You've taken me from the mirey clay, set my feet upon a rock, now I know." I love when the Holy Spirit gives me a song.
I remember getting a song when I knew God told me to go to Master's Commission. At that point, I was fighting the call. As soon as I asked God why I should do this, He replied through a song that came out of my mouth. "That's why we praise Him, that's why we sing. That's why we offer Him our everything - cause He gave HIS everything......cause He gave his everything." That was a milemarker in my life.
Through this I think I've learned to realize that I am super sensitive when I'm carrying a burden that I am not supposed to have. It shouldn't be on my shoulders. God will never let anything happen to us that we can not handle. A prophet declared that we would face much warfare! I will gladly take this in exchange for God's promotion. I've also internalized that when you are treated ugly by others, it really is a reflection of what is going on on the inside of them.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Something is Coming
I tell ya, something is coming my direction in the form of nothing short of a miracle. I am writing this post to serve as a reminder that God is in control. I am sure that sometime in the distant future, this blog post will find me. It will serve as a testimony and a faith booster, because I refuse to be subject to this world.
God has been revealing to me lately how many times in my life I have not given God the credit for answered prayers and miracles. We are all so quick to blame God for what isn't done, but we only give him one glimpse of fame (if that) when He does something! Somehow, we get under the impression that it would have happened regardless. I know in my heart that if God got more of the credit He is worthy of instead of criticism for what wasn't of God in the first place, we would be much more likely to witness answered prayers more consistantly.
I think back to a specific instance when God did something major, and I failed to give Him the credit. When I was at youth camp, God told me very clearly that I was called to be an evangelist. He also told me that I was called to lead people into the manifest prescence of God. At the time, I had no idea what true evangelism consisted of as well as no indication what manifest truely meant. I look at my life now as I am married to an evangelist in the making, and I am nothing short of shame as I have not given God the credit.
God didn't have to even share that information with me. He loves me soooo much. Yet, I find myself doubtful when my finances look rather......well, dry! During these times of testing, I am going to focus on the things that God HAS done! Just the other day, an offering was taken up for a great evangelist visiting the church. They passed around the offering bags, and I honestly had nothing to put into it. Dustin leaned over to me to assure me that it would be okay. I told him, "No! God will multiply this dollar." I held on to it until the bag came to me. Just before I put my money in the bag, Dustin pulled a few more dollars out of his wallet. I'm sure he pulled it out in response to my statement, but regardless, Dustin added to my dollar and I saw God multiply that single dollar right before my eyes. My eyes and heart were lit with excitement. I live for this stuff.
Instead of embracing doubt, I'm going to embrace the multiplier of my dollars. He has it soo in control. I know I am always safer and more secure than I can imagine. I am in God's hands! I declare that finances will come, debt will diminish, and my finances will be as of the Lord's bank account. It will be used for His sake and for a testiment of God's faithfullness. I will not back down!....An Enemy has Done This! Go to heartlandfamily.com and watch the sermon entitled "An Enemy has Done This." It is super relevant to this post.
God has been revealing to me lately how many times in my life I have not given God the credit for answered prayers and miracles. We are all so quick to blame God for what isn't done, but we only give him one glimpse of fame (if that) when He does something! Somehow, we get under the impression that it would have happened regardless. I know in my heart that if God got more of the credit He is worthy of instead of criticism for what wasn't of God in the first place, we would be much more likely to witness answered prayers more consistantly.
I think back to a specific instance when God did something major, and I failed to give Him the credit. When I was at youth camp, God told me very clearly that I was called to be an evangelist. He also told me that I was called to lead people into the manifest prescence of God. At the time, I had no idea what true evangelism consisted of as well as no indication what manifest truely meant. I look at my life now as I am married to an evangelist in the making, and I am nothing short of shame as I have not given God the credit.
God didn't have to even share that information with me. He loves me soooo much. Yet, I find myself doubtful when my finances look rather......well, dry! During these times of testing, I am going to focus on the things that God HAS done! Just the other day, an offering was taken up for a great evangelist visiting the church. They passed around the offering bags, and I honestly had nothing to put into it. Dustin leaned over to me to assure me that it would be okay. I told him, "No! God will multiply this dollar." I held on to it until the bag came to me. Just before I put my money in the bag, Dustin pulled a few more dollars out of his wallet. I'm sure he pulled it out in response to my statement, but regardless, Dustin added to my dollar and I saw God multiply that single dollar right before my eyes. My eyes and heart were lit with excitement. I live for this stuff.
Instead of embracing doubt, I'm going to embrace the multiplier of my dollars. He has it soo in control. I know I am always safer and more secure than I can imagine. I am in God's hands! I declare that finances will come, debt will diminish, and my finances will be as of the Lord's bank account. It will be used for His sake and for a testiment of God's faithfullness. I will not back down!....An Enemy has Done This! Go to heartlandfamily.com and watch the sermon entitled "An Enemy has Done This." It is super relevant to this post.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Quality vs. Quantity
I have entered a new season in my life. I have always loved being a servant, and I don't say that in a boastful way. Thoughtfulness has always come easy to me and people have always just been in my path that needed help. However, I have felt a shift. The people in my path now are no longer being helped, and I feel that I am just amiss. I always want to help people, but I have heard God speak to me about this recently.
It is time to stop spreading myself out. It is time to develop those relationships and ventures in my life that are worth investing my time. Not everyone that comes in my path is going to be at the top of my priorities any longer. I am beginning a journey of finding myself. I have done well so far! I am dressing nicer, taking extra time to put on jewelry and lipstick, and wearing lady clothes! I feel sooo much better, and I am realizing that I am VALUABLE! I am worth protecting and not spreading my pearls to swine! This is such a beautiful revalation to me to be able to grasp this concept.
Oh, and I finally found a mentor! My mentor is the HOLY SPIRIT!
It is time to stop spreading myself out. It is time to develop those relationships and ventures in my life that are worth investing my time. Not everyone that comes in my path is going to be at the top of my priorities any longer. I am beginning a journey of finding myself. I have done well so far! I am dressing nicer, taking extra time to put on jewelry and lipstick, and wearing lady clothes! I feel sooo much better, and I am realizing that I am VALUABLE! I am worth protecting and not spreading my pearls to swine! This is such a beautiful revalation to me to be able to grasp this concept.
Oh, and I finally found a mentor! My mentor is the HOLY SPIRIT!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Bottled Up
I recently got a new laptop for work. I have been wanting one for a very long time. I now hope to be blogging much more due to the availability of a comfortable position while on the computer. I LOVE writing, so many times I suspect my blogs will be just for my release that I get when I just write what's going on in my life down, whether it be on paper privately or published publically.
Life is wonderful. However, I feel like so many things are just bottled up inside of me. Dustin has pushed into heaven through his persuit of God. Heartland School of Ministry has catapolted him from a man with Godly desires to a man with Godly power. I have seen such a change, and I know that as he continues to reach heaven, I am being uplifted. I have felt a connection to him as I never have before just through him persuing God and him being the head of my household. I have seen him go through multiple stages since being here, and I can't believe the progress he has made in the Lord.
I had a vision of us and the people around us trying to reach heaven. I saw a dark sky that was blanketed. I also saw that every prayer that was being prayed was rising to the sky as arrows. I saw the prayers that were lofty going up and coming right back down. I saw some going up and just getting stuck in the blanket. I believe this represented the seasons in our life up till this moment. I then began to see more and more people around us that were shooting their arrows and petitions towards heaven. I believe that since we have moved here, we have been positioned with so many more people with a common purpose. There is nothing that compares to my home church, but there is something about God positioning you with different people at different seasons in your life. As nothing began to penetrate the heavens, I looked around and saw the multitude of people begin to converse and combine strengths in order to penetrate heaven. The people began to realize that the strength of multiple people would be the only things that would work. After working together, they began to release their arrows, but they just got stuck in the blanket as well, but they went a little farther. I believe this has been the most recent season, where God has separated the wheat from the chaff. Lastly, the people began to realize that it wasn't just multiplied strength it was people with like arrows and passion and righteousness that must huddle together to release arrows. When they huddled and began to pray, I saw an arrow penetrate the blanket. I believe this is now....HALLELUJAH.
When the arrow when through, I saw more and more continue to puncture the blanket. I then saw that this was the key to revival in that there was a river resting on top of the blanket. The fewer arrows that penetrated, the more concentrated and strong was the river that came out of the hole in the blanket. This was the reason that the positioning of the right people were so vital to the original aims of shooting the arrows. When the blanket is penetrated, God will have the right people right under the waterfall! The river was God's refreshing! When we get together and really touch heaven, we will reach a place that hasn't been touched. I know God's river is there waiting to be set free and to be released from it's current boundaries. It's not up to God to release it, it's up to us!
Lastly, I have been praying for some people in my life that I admire greatly. The enemy has tried to stop me, but I refuse. I have recently learned that serving to climb is a sin. I think I have done this unintentionally, but as I examined my heart, I saw that it was there. It helped me to be free from this when I began to tell God that despite if I had ever known these people, I thank God and rejoice just the same in their success for the kingdom! As my flesh sometimes opposes it, my heart has began to love serving in secret. There really is nothing like it.
Life is wonderful. However, I feel like so many things are just bottled up inside of me. Dustin has pushed into heaven through his persuit of God. Heartland School of Ministry has catapolted him from a man with Godly desires to a man with Godly power. I have seen such a change, and I know that as he continues to reach heaven, I am being uplifted. I have felt a connection to him as I never have before just through him persuing God and him being the head of my household. I have seen him go through multiple stages since being here, and I can't believe the progress he has made in the Lord.
I had a vision of us and the people around us trying to reach heaven. I saw a dark sky that was blanketed. I also saw that every prayer that was being prayed was rising to the sky as arrows. I saw the prayers that were lofty going up and coming right back down. I saw some going up and just getting stuck in the blanket. I believe this represented the seasons in our life up till this moment. I then began to see more and more people around us that were shooting their arrows and petitions towards heaven. I believe that since we have moved here, we have been positioned with so many more people with a common purpose. There is nothing that compares to my home church, but there is something about God positioning you with different people at different seasons in your life. As nothing began to penetrate the heavens, I looked around and saw the multitude of people begin to converse and combine strengths in order to penetrate heaven. The people began to realize that the strength of multiple people would be the only things that would work. After working together, they began to release their arrows, but they just got stuck in the blanket as well, but they went a little farther. I believe this has been the most recent season, where God has separated the wheat from the chaff. Lastly, the people began to realize that it wasn't just multiplied strength it was people with like arrows and passion and righteousness that must huddle together to release arrows. When they huddled and began to pray, I saw an arrow penetrate the blanket. I believe this is now....HALLELUJAH.
When the arrow when through, I saw more and more continue to puncture the blanket. I then saw that this was the key to revival in that there was a river resting on top of the blanket. The fewer arrows that penetrated, the more concentrated and strong was the river that came out of the hole in the blanket. This was the reason that the positioning of the right people were so vital to the original aims of shooting the arrows. When the blanket is penetrated, God will have the right people right under the waterfall! The river was God's refreshing! When we get together and really touch heaven, we will reach a place that hasn't been touched. I know God's river is there waiting to be set free and to be released from it's current boundaries. It's not up to God to release it, it's up to us!
Lastly, I have been praying for some people in my life that I admire greatly. The enemy has tried to stop me, but I refuse. I have recently learned that serving to climb is a sin. I think I have done this unintentionally, but as I examined my heart, I saw that it was there. It helped me to be free from this when I began to tell God that despite if I had ever known these people, I thank God and rejoice just the same in their success for the kingdom! As my flesh sometimes opposes it, my heart has began to love serving in secret. There really is nothing like it.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I am God's movement.
Yesterday, I had a wonderful conversation with God. Any conversation with God is always good, because you know he is talking to you! My insides scream with excitment when He talks back to me....no matter how often it occurs.
Anyways, I was driving past Harry Hines Blvd. as usual when I didn't have time to curse the bad clubs as I was passing. My throat had been very sore, and I became tired of saying it every day to and from work. I then asked God to allow just my body passing by it to curse them each time. I thought to myself that it would be awesome that no matter if I had paid attention or not that God inside me would be able to curse the buildings without my continual saying it. God IMMEDIATELY responded, "If I was wanting to do that, I would have done it Myself without using you to do it. How do you think I curse them?...I curse them by the words from your mouth; therefore, just passing by would be denying the power I intend to use in you to curse it."
I then was refreshed with the verses:
"But no one can tame the tongue; it is a restless evil and full of deadly poison. 9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the likeness of God; 10 from the same mouth come both blessing and cursing."
"I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven."
I think it is sooooo cool that God uses us that way. I underestimate my capabilities to the point where my mindset is sometimes crippled! Why am I on spiritual crutches to think that He doesn't want us to BE His vessels of blessings and curses?
If this is something I now believe, then I must also believe that speaking His blessings over myself and my family works to the same degree. If I don't want evil knocking at my door, then by golly, I need to get off my butt and curse the evil that is coming my way. If I want to see God's blessings, then..........you guessed it, I need to speak blessings into my life. My words have power and my words ARE the voice of God when my life is consecrated to him.
God, I ask that you help me and those who read this to realize the potential of our words. I will choose to not complain and call in harm. I will be a speaker of life when it is time for it and I will speak death when you word stands against things. I seek your wisdome and you Holy Ghost power to consume me in this area. I pray this seed will not only be planted in fertile soil, but that it would grow into a mighty source of other seeds for others in Your kingdom. Thank You for this revelation of your truth.
In Jesus Name, Amen.
Below are the names of the strip clubs for this area. It is beginning to get on my nerves! I feel a rising of change in the atmosphere! Please pray with me concerning this! At least five of these are on the road that I pass everyday. Another terrible thing about this is they have disgusting billboards all over the major highway flashed before every driver! God, protect the people that drive by it! I would never advise to visit the websites for these clubs, but I tried to find a picture of the particular one that I drive right beside. I wasn't able to find an outside pic of the building and I didn't click into anything on that site, but I realized that the publicity for these women are as shaded figures with exposed bodies; yet so many people neglect to think of the actual souls attached to these bodies. Who are we to let this happen on our watch? Lastly, there is an outreach for these girls at my church, and I know they would greatly appreciate your prayers and intercession.
Baby Dolls
Bombshells Nude Cabaret
Cabaret Royale
Chicas Bonitas
Club Onyx
Clubhouse
Dallas Gentlemen's Club
Fare Club (at Cabaret Royale)
Gold Club
Jaguar's Gold Club
King's Cabaret
La Zona Rosa Cabaret
Lady Love II
Lipstick Cabaret
Lodge
Men's Club Of Dallas
Pandora's Mens Club
Silver City Cabaret
Spearmint Rhino
Tiger Cabaret
XTC Cabaret
Anyways, I was driving past Harry Hines Blvd. as usual when I didn't have time to curse the bad clubs as I was passing. My throat had been very sore, and I became tired of saying it every day to and from work. I then asked God to allow just my body passing by it to curse them each time. I thought to myself that it would be awesome that no matter if I had paid attention or not that God inside me would be able to curse the buildings without my continual saying it. God IMMEDIATELY responded, "If I was wanting to do that, I would have done it Myself without using you to do it. How do you think I curse them?...I curse them by the words from your mouth; therefore, just passing by would be denying the power I intend to use in you to curse it."
I then was refreshed with the verses:
"But no one can tame the tongue; it is a restless evil and full of deadly poison. 9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the likeness of God; 10 from the same mouth come both blessing and cursing."
"I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven."
I think it is sooooo cool that God uses us that way. I underestimate my capabilities to the point where my mindset is sometimes crippled! Why am I on spiritual crutches to think that He doesn't want us to BE His vessels of blessings and curses?
If this is something I now believe, then I must also believe that speaking His blessings over myself and my family works to the same degree. If I don't want evil knocking at my door, then by golly, I need to get off my butt and curse the evil that is coming my way. If I want to see God's blessings, then..........you guessed it, I need to speak blessings into my life. My words have power and my words ARE the voice of God when my life is consecrated to him.
God, I ask that you help me and those who read this to realize the potential of our words. I will choose to not complain and call in harm. I will be a speaker of life when it is time for it and I will speak death when you word stands against things. I seek your wisdome and you Holy Ghost power to consume me in this area. I pray this seed will not only be planted in fertile soil, but that it would grow into a mighty source of other seeds for others in Your kingdom. Thank You for this revelation of your truth.
In Jesus Name, Amen.
Below are the names of the strip clubs for this area. It is beginning to get on my nerves! I feel a rising of change in the atmosphere! Please pray with me concerning this! At least five of these are on the road that I pass everyday. Another terrible thing about this is they have disgusting billboards all over the major highway flashed before every driver! God, protect the people that drive by it! I would never advise to visit the websites for these clubs, but I tried to find a picture of the particular one that I drive right beside. I wasn't able to find an outside pic of the building and I didn't click into anything on that site, but I realized that the publicity for these women are as shaded figures with exposed bodies; yet so many people neglect to think of the actual souls attached to these bodies. Who are we to let this happen on our watch? Lastly, there is an outreach for these girls at my church, and I know they would greatly appreciate your prayers and intercession.
Baby Dolls
Bombshells Nude Cabaret
Cabaret Royale
Chicas Bonitas
Club Onyx
Clubhouse
Dallas Gentlemen's Club
Fare Club (at Cabaret Royale)
Gold Club
Jaguar's Gold Club
King's Cabaret
La Zona Rosa Cabaret
Lady Love II
Lipstick Cabaret
Lodge
Men's Club Of Dallas
Pandora's Mens Club
Silver City Cabaret
Spearmint Rhino
Tiger Cabaret
XTC Cabaret
I want this bag. haha
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Saturday, February 6, 2010
HSM and JENNA...ha
I have two things that have been going on inside of me for a while now. I know that I need to blog about certain things when I just can't shake them from my brain and heart. Instead of writing two different posts, I will just do the first half about HSM and the second half about me. Oh, for those of you who don't know, HSM stands for Heartland School of Ministry. My husband attends along with some dear friends of ours.
So here is the HSM part:
I have been feeling for a while now the urging to just pray for the school. It has gone through attack, it seems, from all directions. This is no suprise; however, because Dr. Tapper, a professor, prophesied at orientation that the enemy was going to come almost in waves, but God would raise up a wall that would block his attempts. There would be multiple attacks until God would erect a final wall that could not be penetrated or overcome by the enemy. I feel such an urging to write about this, because as a former ministry student, I understand how easy it is to forget the significant details when surrounded by ministry all of the time. I feel I have an objective point of view, because I am somewhat of an observer that is not surrounded; therefore, I feel that I can see it as a whole. Anyhow, I know of so many students that have struggled in more ways than one to get to the school, remain at the school, and prosper without fainting. I have watched my brothers and sisters endure hardships and trials that are significant even to the seasoned christian. I have seen and heard of the impartation that God is rushing their way.
I knew my heart couldn't contain my words about this when I popped in the CD of John Potter prophesying over each student. There were so many common phrases and words that I heard. I often heard talk of partnership, expanding limitations, as well as fire and power annointings. The most significant word that he uttered was of uniting the students! He said that through partnership and relationship with one another, each one would reach more potential and advancement in the spiritual. He implored that one must not "rank" themselves amongst each other, but each one is knitted with the others as in an elaborate quilt. (This was my interpretation, not John's exact words.)
I just wanted to say to each HSM'er to beware! To whom much is given much is required. I know that I have had a tendancy to take prophesy lightly and just to focus on the good. I know God was speaking to me that each one much realize that a prophesy direct from God is as the bible in that it is a LIVING word. Just as we are held accountable for what is in the word, we are held accountable to the instructions given through words of prophesy. I would never compare that prophesy is equal to or better than the Bible, but I am saying that it is the spoken word of God that must NOT be taken lightly. Please hear my heart and know that I am not saying this to preach to any HSM'er.
I hope and pray that each student will grab hold of that living word invested and act on it. I know that revival is on it's way when this is done. Lastly, I want to mention what I believe to be a product of that encounter through John Potter. There are some girl students that are in one apartment together, and it is amazing to hear of the God movings that occur within that apartment. I feel that just as the word given that day said, they are knit together and God is showing up in a HUGE WAY. I just dare myself to believe that if the whole school did this as a whole, then revival would show up and show out! Oh, my heart pounds at the thought of it.
So HSM students, I want you to know that you are daily being prayed for and uplifted! I believe each student is a piece of the quilt of revival!
So here is the JENNA part:
I have been going through something that I think all wives go through at some point. I have been treating my husband in a way that I know he doesn't deserve. Don't get me wrong, I haven't been terrible or anything drastic, but I knew something was in my heart that just wasn't right. After weeks of talking to God about it, I have now come to a conclusion. I have neglected to cultivate the beauty of who I am inside. It is such a hard line to draw for a wife of God to submit, but yet be bold in the Lord. I am opinionated and bossy, but I am also self-driven and strong. As I began to doubt who I was now and who I would be in Dustin's ministry, I began to blame him. I am in the process of repentence, and I know that my outward behavior was a result of my inward state.
I learned that I must cultivate the beauty of who I am in God. I am first His, then my husband's. I have learned that I don't need to fade behind my husband's ministry, but I need to simply have his back. I choose to walk behind him AND beside him. I always thought that it had to be one or the other. There are times when I need to be behind him as support and then there are times when I need to be beside him in warfare! I have learned that submitting to your husband isn't always a passive role. It is a very active one! I have a voice and I am proud to proclaim the truth of God. I also have the discipline to shut the same voice when my husband needs to speak as the head of me. I thank God for helping me to see the dual roles of a godly wife. I listened to the prophesy I spoke of earlier in this post over and over at the part of my husband's. I want to know God's plan as much as I can frontwards and backwards so that I will be turned the right direction at the right time when I am behind him. I want to be positioned to the right when he begins to see that the right side is the next direction. I will always do as he directs, but I want to be support even in scary transitions so that every ounce of his back is covered!
So here is the HSM part:
I have been feeling for a while now the urging to just pray for the school. It has gone through attack, it seems, from all directions. This is no suprise; however, because Dr. Tapper, a professor, prophesied at orientation that the enemy was going to come almost in waves, but God would raise up a wall that would block his attempts. There would be multiple attacks until God would erect a final wall that could not be penetrated or overcome by the enemy. I feel such an urging to write about this, because as a former ministry student, I understand how easy it is to forget the significant details when surrounded by ministry all of the time. I feel I have an objective point of view, because I am somewhat of an observer that is not surrounded; therefore, I feel that I can see it as a whole. Anyhow, I know of so many students that have struggled in more ways than one to get to the school, remain at the school, and prosper without fainting. I have watched my brothers and sisters endure hardships and trials that are significant even to the seasoned christian. I have seen and heard of the impartation that God is rushing their way.
I knew my heart couldn't contain my words about this when I popped in the CD of John Potter prophesying over each student. There were so many common phrases and words that I heard. I often heard talk of partnership, expanding limitations, as well as fire and power annointings. The most significant word that he uttered was of uniting the students! He said that through partnership and relationship with one another, each one would reach more potential and advancement in the spiritual. He implored that one must not "rank" themselves amongst each other, but each one is knitted with the others as in an elaborate quilt. (This was my interpretation, not John's exact words.)
I just wanted to say to each HSM'er to beware! To whom much is given much is required. I know that I have had a tendancy to take prophesy lightly and just to focus on the good. I know God was speaking to me that each one much realize that a prophesy direct from God is as the bible in that it is a LIVING word. Just as we are held accountable for what is in the word, we are held accountable to the instructions given through words of prophesy. I would never compare that prophesy is equal to or better than the Bible, but I am saying that it is the spoken word of God that must NOT be taken lightly. Please hear my heart and know that I am not saying this to preach to any HSM'er.
I hope and pray that each student will grab hold of that living word invested and act on it. I know that revival is on it's way when this is done. Lastly, I want to mention what I believe to be a product of that encounter through John Potter. There are some girl students that are in one apartment together, and it is amazing to hear of the God movings that occur within that apartment. I feel that just as the word given that day said, they are knit together and God is showing up in a HUGE WAY. I just dare myself to believe that if the whole school did this as a whole, then revival would show up and show out! Oh, my heart pounds at the thought of it.
So HSM students, I want you to know that you are daily being prayed for and uplifted! I believe each student is a piece of the quilt of revival!
So here is the JENNA part:
I have been going through something that I think all wives go through at some point. I have been treating my husband in a way that I know he doesn't deserve. Don't get me wrong, I haven't been terrible or anything drastic, but I knew something was in my heart that just wasn't right. After weeks of talking to God about it, I have now come to a conclusion. I have neglected to cultivate the beauty of who I am inside. It is such a hard line to draw for a wife of God to submit, but yet be bold in the Lord. I am opinionated and bossy, but I am also self-driven and strong. As I began to doubt who I was now and who I would be in Dustin's ministry, I began to blame him. I am in the process of repentence, and I know that my outward behavior was a result of my inward state.
I learned that I must cultivate the beauty of who I am in God. I am first His, then my husband's. I have learned that I don't need to fade behind my husband's ministry, but I need to simply have his back. I choose to walk behind him AND beside him. I always thought that it had to be one or the other. There are times when I need to be behind him as support and then there are times when I need to be beside him in warfare! I have learned that submitting to your husband isn't always a passive role. It is a very active one! I have a voice and I am proud to proclaim the truth of God. I also have the discipline to shut the same voice when my husband needs to speak as the head of me. I thank God for helping me to see the dual roles of a godly wife. I listened to the prophesy I spoke of earlier in this post over and over at the part of my husband's. I want to know God's plan as much as I can frontwards and backwards so that I will be turned the right direction at the right time when I am behind him. I want to be positioned to the right when he begins to see that the right side is the next direction. I will always do as he directs, but I want to be support even in scary transitions so that every ounce of his back is covered!
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