I uploaded picture I took of the bible I was using three years before I met Dustin. I wrote this at a youth camp. God sure enough gave me my evangelist husband. I realize more and more everyday to the extent that he is an evangelist. He blows my mind, and it is an honor for me to be his wife. I realize more everyday that I need to remember God has given me him for this life and I am RESPONSIBLE for how I am a steward over his wonderful son! I aim to be pleasing to God in this area. I still have ALOT of growing room; nevertheless, I am a work in PROGRESS.
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Saturday, April 17, 2010
Tune In
Okay, I know it's been a while, but I have been either busy or tired. Also, I am going to fix my headline picture just as soon as I get the time and energy to figure out how to make it work.
Anyhoo, this morning I was scanning the radio stations in my car while on my way to tutor some great fifth graders for the upcoming Science TAKS test. I have been scanning the stations lately, because I have been curious about the availability of good talk shows or christian radio programs. The Holy Ghost then just hit me with a simple yet profound truth about our connection with God.
I have been thinking lately about fruit. I mean, I have seen some people with some pretty crazy perspectives and beliefs about issues that I would naturally think are make it or break it religeous issues, such as predestination, vanity, secularism, etc. I am not speaking against those things as I believe it really is for YOU to decide through personal revelation for yourself; however, I began thinking of all the cooky people that I have known that for some reason have been used GREATLY to minister to people. I then just reminded myself to not dull down my persuit of holiness and God just because I have been able to see visible and spiritual fruit as a result of my hard work. I thought I would just put this out there, because I thought it was at least food for thought.
Back to the radio, the Holy Spirit showed me that many times our usefulness to the kingdom is directly related to our connection with the ultimate source (tower). As I was scanning through the stations, almost all of them had the same volume, but some were very unclear! It reminded me of some people I have come across that produce such loud sound, but have no clarity or true message coming from their efforts. A few particular people come to mind, but I'll refrain from mentioning them. ha I also heard stations that were mixed such as a hispanic station mixing in with some type of music. This made me think of Christians that are playing both sides of the fence. I know SOOO MANY PEOPLE that think that they are heaven bound when they are earthly minded. I just want to yell, "STOP WASTING YOUR TIME!!" There was also a few stations that were just plain ugly. Of course, this one wasn't hard, this represented the people that are clearly in the world; however, I found a refreshing in this. It was refreshing to me because it was instantly obvious that this station wasn't for me. When the mixed stations came on, I had to put my filter up and distinguish what was really coming through. This is definately where the church has gone wrong....new Christians are overwhelmed by "playing the fence christians" that it is hard to find truth, that is why we must depend on the Word. There were some that just were LOUD static. I feel that the Holy Spirit revealed to me that this is the sound coming forth to God when people are depressed or leaning on their own understanding to make sense of the world. Lastly, there were the christian stations that came in loud and clear...THANK GOD FOR THOSE. They were clear and connected!
Oh, how I want to be a station that God LOVES tuning into when He is needed a refreshing from people that love Him. When He has a long day (pardon the metaphor), I want Him to sit back and know exactly what station to turn to.....MINE. I want Him to have my station line on one of the memory buttons! I want to be such a sweet sound to Him. I believe that the totality of our life is the message coming through.. Does it make a sweet noise to the Savior or a distorted noise?
Lastly, I have had a burden for our nation lately, due to a dream that I had. Through Daughter's of Grace girls group, I have embraced and uncovered the significance of my dreams. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean looking for anything in a dream to mean something spiritual...I mean asking God to take over my slumber in any way He wants...and then if He gives me a VIVID dream, to ask for an interpretation...and little by little, if it was God, I'll begin to see the meaning and what I should do about it.
Anyhoo, this morning I was scanning the radio stations in my car while on my way to tutor some great fifth graders for the upcoming Science TAKS test. I have been scanning the stations lately, because I have been curious about the availability of good talk shows or christian radio programs. The Holy Ghost then just hit me with a simple yet profound truth about our connection with God.
I have been thinking lately about fruit. I mean, I have seen some people with some pretty crazy perspectives and beliefs about issues that I would naturally think are make it or break it religeous issues, such as predestination, vanity, secularism, etc. I am not speaking against those things as I believe it really is for YOU to decide through personal revelation for yourself; however, I began thinking of all the cooky people that I have known that for some reason have been used GREATLY to minister to people. I then just reminded myself to not dull down my persuit of holiness and God just because I have been able to see visible and spiritual fruit as a result of my hard work. I thought I would just put this out there, because I thought it was at least food for thought.
Back to the radio, the Holy Spirit showed me that many times our usefulness to the kingdom is directly related to our connection with the ultimate source (tower). As I was scanning through the stations, almost all of them had the same volume, but some were very unclear! It reminded me of some people I have come across that produce such loud sound, but have no clarity or true message coming from their efforts. A few particular people come to mind, but I'll refrain from mentioning them. ha I also heard stations that were mixed such as a hispanic station mixing in with some type of music. This made me think of Christians that are playing both sides of the fence. I know SOOO MANY PEOPLE that think that they are heaven bound when they are earthly minded. I just want to yell, "STOP WASTING YOUR TIME!!" There was also a few stations that were just plain ugly. Of course, this one wasn't hard, this represented the people that are clearly in the world; however, I found a refreshing in this. It was refreshing to me because it was instantly obvious that this station wasn't for me. When the mixed stations came on, I had to put my filter up and distinguish what was really coming through. This is definately where the church has gone wrong....new Christians are overwhelmed by "playing the fence christians" that it is hard to find truth, that is why we must depend on the Word. There were some that just were LOUD static. I feel that the Holy Spirit revealed to me that this is the sound coming forth to God when people are depressed or leaning on their own understanding to make sense of the world. Lastly, there were the christian stations that came in loud and clear...THANK GOD FOR THOSE. They were clear and connected!
Oh, how I want to be a station that God LOVES tuning into when He is needed a refreshing from people that love Him. When He has a long day (pardon the metaphor), I want Him to sit back and know exactly what station to turn to.....MINE. I want Him to have my station line on one of the memory buttons! I want to be such a sweet sound to Him. I believe that the totality of our life is the message coming through.. Does it make a sweet noise to the Savior or a distorted noise?
Lastly, I have had a burden for our nation lately, due to a dream that I had. Through Daughter's of Grace girls group, I have embraced and uncovered the significance of my dreams. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean looking for anything in a dream to mean something spiritual...I mean asking God to take over my slumber in any way He wants...and then if He gives me a VIVID dream, to ask for an interpretation...and little by little, if it was God, I'll begin to see the meaning and what I should do about it.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Journaling
There was a time when I constantly felt left out of what God was doing in mine and Dustin's life. He spends soo much time with God and godly people, that I began to fear that I would wake up one day, and Dustin would lead us in a direction that I had no idea was coming. I felt disconnected and discouraged. I felt the Holy Spirit guide me to buy a journal that both of us write in when God speaks to us. Since then, I have felt soooo much more connected. What I'm about to write about comes from this journal. :)
Lately, I've been feeling disgust with religion. I've been hesitant to share things like this, because I remember when I was a young christian, talk like this was soo yucky to me. I just didn't understand. I'm sure there are several things and demensions that I do not still understand. I have such a distate with religion. I'm so tired of feeling such a responsibility to evangelize, but such little understanding and faith to do it. My personal prayer is to have God's power and voice be a part of me....not something that I just try to sell to people out of obligation.
God showed me that when you are righteous for the right reason, you will enter the relm of healings, miracles, and deliverance that is reserved for those SERIOUS about God. We are to release healings, not demand it. If you love Him, you will take care of His sheep.
Part of what my husband shared in the journal, is that he feels God calling him to mobilize the youth to evangelism. Well, not quite sure yet how I feel about this, but you know what, it doesn't matter! I do not live by feelings. I've been finding that so many things I am subconciously demanding from God is what He is asking from me. There is a hold up spiritually, and it is my fault. I wanted more of God, but He wants more of me. I wanted to hear His voice more, He wants to hear mine more! He wins!......my victory comes through my responding to what He has already done for me. Everything is waiting for ME to tap into! I know He wants me to have it more than I want it for myself.
Lately, I've been feeling disgust with religion. I've been hesitant to share things like this, because I remember when I was a young christian, talk like this was soo yucky to me. I just didn't understand. I'm sure there are several things and demensions that I do not still understand. I have such a distate with religion. I'm so tired of feeling such a responsibility to evangelize, but such little understanding and faith to do it. My personal prayer is to have God's power and voice be a part of me....not something that I just try to sell to people out of obligation.
God showed me that when you are righteous for the right reason, you will enter the relm of healings, miracles, and deliverance that is reserved for those SERIOUS about God. We are to release healings, not demand it. If you love Him, you will take care of His sheep.
Part of what my husband shared in the journal, is that he feels God calling him to mobilize the youth to evangelism. Well, not quite sure yet how I feel about this, but you know what, it doesn't matter! I do not live by feelings. I've been finding that so many things I am subconciously demanding from God is what He is asking from me. There is a hold up spiritually, and it is my fault. I wanted more of God, but He wants more of me. I wanted to hear His voice more, He wants to hear mine more! He wins!......my victory comes through my responding to what He has already done for me. Everything is waiting for ME to tap into! I know He wants me to have it more than I want it for myself.
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