Where do I begin?...I found out that I am pregnant with baby Kindle (when the docs confirm that it is indeed a girl). I have gone through so much change since finding out. I am currently 7 weeks although I think about 8 weeks. My doctor and I are on two different wavelengths when it comes to dates...not that it really matters.
I had a good conversation with a close friend recently about why I feel this season has just crept up on me. I don't know why I let it creep up on me. God told me almost two years in advance. He told me again two months in advance. We conceived the first full month that we started to try. When I say try I mean we just stopped preventing.
Anyhoo, my conversation with my friend led me to believe what a blessing this is to me. I mean, I know that expecting a baby is a blessing, but I never realized how broken of a spirit you become until you are expecting the first child. Golly, it can just be overwhelming. I know that upon finding out I was pregnant, I have been broken and in expectation. I always have control of my life...well, not anymore. I'm growing more and more fond of life coming to me rather than me running ahead of it to try and control and manipulate it.
God has also shared with me that when I'm broken, my spirit demands the REAL peace...the REAL provision...and the REAL prescence of God. It's easier to accept a substitute when the situation isn't critically important..you know what I mean?
I've gone from demanding a house and other provisions for my family to being content in my apartment with my tag-along car. I know that this season has been ordained by God. He told me the date, the name, and the gender before I ever conceived. It has so far fallen into place perfectly with what He told me.
Currently, I'm a river of emotions..crying at small things. I am a picky yet unpredictable eater. I am a saltine cracker conisour. I am a sleep-a-holic. I am also an expectant mother...wow When you pile that on top of being a full time teacher and wife....it can be just a little overwhelming at times.
Lastly, I've seen God overcome the odds for me. My doctor, the month before I got pregnant, said I would possibly have to have fertility drugs due to cysts on my ovaries. In combination with my thyroid problems, he said it should at the least take a while. Miscarriage also runs in my family. My first appointment was a little of a shaker b/c my doctor said the baby was semi-small for how far along I was and that her heartbeat was a little low. He did a blood test that day. The next day, they called me and put me on hormones to prevent miscarriage. He said that the medicine had to start that day and that it couldn't wait until the weekend was over. I got this phone call while on a prayer journey through the city of Dallas with my spiritual warfare prayer team.
Since then, I have spoken life over my womb several times as I can sometimes even feel darkness try to enter in. I've had prayer warriors pray over me. After the prayers of others and my own determination to warfare over my womb, there is nothing but life and health over me. I know this baby is going to be a warrior already. There was a fight already to get this far. It's funny how my maternal role is already being used as I war in the spirit for my own baby. I have no fear....I am victorious.
It's funny how repeating these events makes me realize the spiritual significance behind all of this. Well, I hear in my soul that "Satan comes like a theif in the night." He tries to remain subtle...he tries to remain concealed. I pray the light of God would penetrate all darkness as the enemy is exposed. He has no place in my home....no place...period.
I expectantly look towards my future with hope and faith in hand. I won't let go.....He won't let go. Thank God.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
NIKE
Okay, I tried posting this link and info from my facebook at least five different times on two different browsers, and it wouldn't work. I'll let you make your own conclusions of why..?
I started researching NIKE because I heard it was a Greek goddess that is still worshiped today through an occult.
I recently said a prayer of release from Freemasonry as it's ties or unbelievably demonic. If the knowledge and power of warfare interests you, here is the site. It also has MANY other valuable resources here. My spiritual warfare teacher, Rebecca Greenwood, said if you are from the south, it would be a good idea to do this. Prayer of Release site
Upon this prayer of release, it says that I will do away with things that represent demonic worship. I started researching, and this is what I found. If for no other reason, I thought it required exposure as I myself wish I had heard about all of this type of stuff much sooner. I believe ignorance isn't bliss and we need to be aware of what doors we open as we clothe ourselves and live in the everyday world.
I believe this is based mainly on personal convictions; therefore, it isn't my goal to persuade you but just to share resources that I believe are beneficial to know about. The part of this site that drew me in is the connecction that NIKE desires for people to wrap their body in garments that offer up the swoosh (the shape of her wing) in order to summons her approval for victory. I find it no coinsidence that Nike is a brand that represents sports and the persuit of victory. The name NIKE actually means triumph or victory.
Notice on the document, that some words were actually released for NIKE corp.
The Truth behind Nike
I started researching NIKE because I heard it was a Greek goddess that is still worshiped today through an occult.
I recently said a prayer of release from Freemasonry as it's ties or unbelievably demonic. If the knowledge and power of warfare interests you, here is the site. It also has MANY other valuable resources here. My spiritual warfare teacher, Rebecca Greenwood, said if you are from the south, it would be a good idea to do this. Prayer of Release site
Upon this prayer of release, it says that I will do away with things that represent demonic worship. I started researching, and this is what I found. If for no other reason, I thought it required exposure as I myself wish I had heard about all of this type of stuff much sooner. I believe ignorance isn't bliss and we need to be aware of what doors we open as we clothe ourselves and live in the everyday world.
I believe this is based mainly on personal convictions; therefore, it isn't my goal to persuade you but just to share resources that I believe are beneficial to know about. The part of this site that drew me in is the connecction that NIKE desires for people to wrap their body in garments that offer up the swoosh (the shape of her wing) in order to summons her approval for victory. I find it no coinsidence that Nike is a brand that represents sports and the persuit of victory. The name NIKE actually means triumph or victory.
Notice on the document, that some words were actually released for NIKE corp.
The Truth behind Nike
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
New Orleans Saints
In risk of this whole post sounding very cheesy, I hope to convey the message that I feel has motivated me to take my place even more as a christian.
I was watching a documentary on Saints Football, and they were talking about all of the drastic measures that the leadership goes to to ensure success. Drew Brees, the quarterback missed a game earlier on in his career due to injury. The coach saw him on the practice field throwing balls for hours alone. The coach then asked him, "Why are you out here throwing balls, now?" Drew's response was to the effect that my body knows I would normally be playing right now, I refuse to let it break routine. Wow, this inspires me.
How many times have I skipped out on prayer and evangelism opportunities due to a slight illness or fatigue?.. I am not saying we should be works oriented and feel that we HAVE to do these things as a christian. I am just saying our love for God should be so deeply rooted, that there is an unstoppable, unlimited amount of intrinsic motivation to do these things. I know I have not arrived here yet; however, I certainly see the importance of striving for it.. You may be asking, "How do I strive for it?" I feel God saying, "Seek me and you will find Me. Find Me and you will experience the love necessary to link you to your destiny."
I watch videos of how the team interacts, from the players to the head coach. If you watch, you will quickly see what the coach says goes. If the players don't like it, tough. There is zero tolerance for any backtalk or resistance towards the coach from any player. Why? It's the players job to be the player. It's the coach's job to be the coach. I wish we could get this in the church.
In the video below, I can't help but notice that the coach carries authority! It is his job to pay attention to the details and schemes of the oponant. Secondly, collaboration is KEY. He is constantly communicating with the other coaches, those who are strategically placed beside him in battle! Victory does not come without TEAMWORK.
NO Saints Video - watch now
I could pull endless videos and show endless parallels to the saints of the church by the NO Saints. haha
The main thing that I wanted to share was that I think it is time to recognize we are called into battle. We MUST HAVE A GAMEPLAN, FIGURE OUT WHO IS ON OUR TEAM, AND ESTABLISH THE GOAL. In some ways, being a football player is no different than a warrior for God. We are so ignorant to fight blindly and in ignorance. I say we better get down to business....as God permits, draws us, and equips us.
We are even better than football players. Our cheerleaders are angels, our win is eternal, and our coach is PERFECT in every way. We are more than conquorers because when we get down to it, all we have to do is listen to God's gameplans and strategies, and the battle is already won! I can't imagine how many football players would give everything to follow a team setup like this.
I was watching a documentary on Saints Football, and they were talking about all of the drastic measures that the leadership goes to to ensure success. Drew Brees, the quarterback missed a game earlier on in his career due to injury. The coach saw him on the practice field throwing balls for hours alone. The coach then asked him, "Why are you out here throwing balls, now?" Drew's response was to the effect that my body knows I would normally be playing right now, I refuse to let it break routine. Wow, this inspires me.
How many times have I skipped out on prayer and evangelism opportunities due to a slight illness or fatigue?.. I am not saying we should be works oriented and feel that we HAVE to do these things as a christian. I am just saying our love for God should be so deeply rooted, that there is an unstoppable, unlimited amount of intrinsic motivation to do these things. I know I have not arrived here yet; however, I certainly see the importance of striving for it.. You may be asking, "How do I strive for it?" I feel God saying, "Seek me and you will find Me. Find Me and you will experience the love necessary to link you to your destiny."
I watch videos of how the team interacts, from the players to the head coach. If you watch, you will quickly see what the coach says goes. If the players don't like it, tough. There is zero tolerance for any backtalk or resistance towards the coach from any player. Why? It's the players job to be the player. It's the coach's job to be the coach. I wish we could get this in the church.
In the video below, I can't help but notice that the coach carries authority! It is his job to pay attention to the details and schemes of the oponant. Secondly, collaboration is KEY. He is constantly communicating with the other coaches, those who are strategically placed beside him in battle! Victory does not come without TEAMWORK.
NO Saints Video - watch now
I could pull endless videos and show endless parallels to the saints of the church by the NO Saints. haha
The main thing that I wanted to share was that I think it is time to recognize we are called into battle. We MUST HAVE A GAMEPLAN, FIGURE OUT WHO IS ON OUR TEAM, AND ESTABLISH THE GOAL. In some ways, being a football player is no different than a warrior for God. We are so ignorant to fight blindly and in ignorance. I say we better get down to business....as God permits, draws us, and equips us.
We are even better than football players. Our cheerleaders are angels, our win is eternal, and our coach is PERFECT in every way. We are more than conquorers because when we get down to it, all we have to do is listen to God's gameplans and strategies, and the battle is already won! I can't imagine how many football players would give everything to follow a team setup like this.
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