HOV

There is so much to tell you!  So many changes and events have taken place, but I'll try to catch up as best as I can.  I had a revalation today about the future of our nation.  God showed me that in our nation, we are in rush hour and everyone is desperate to get home to the end of their day.  However, there is terrible traffic.  Everyone's vehicle symbolized their current capacity in God to bring others home with them.  Home represented heaven.

There were so many people so frantic to reach the end of the worldly turmoil.  Some people were driving vans - some empty, some filled to capacity.  Others had the new gas efficient vehicles that held a maximum of two people.  (So many people are going to worldly efficiency only to wind up useless for the kingdom.) 

The problem was that God had opened the HOV lane just for the higher occupancy vehicles.  After all, our mission as christians is to win souls for the kingdom.  Everyone was overusing and abusing the lane; therefore, the lane's purpose was completely void.  The Holy Spirit then revealed to me that God is releasing His authority and will begin to fine and reprimand the fakers.  What's sad is that there were so many vehicles that were able to hold countless people, but there were very few vehicles filled to capacity.  For every seat, there is a designated soul; however, most were empty. 

I fill that the regular lanes represented to widened path that leads to destruction although it currently looked as though it were heading in the right direction.  It's funny how just one law to win souls or perhaps to put God on the throne and not ourselves can make the two seperate pathways divide drastically.  The HOV lane represented the narrow path.  I pray we all get a hold of this!

Lastly,  life has been progressing greatly!  God is definately in the midst of our  journey towards full time ministry.  Although, we both still have a great deal of learning and training to attend, God's promotion is already beginning.  Dustin and I both have prayed for people in the last week that were filled with the baptism of the Holy Ghost with evidence of speaking in tongues for the first time.  I have been filled with prophetic words, and Dustin literally has the fire of God in his hands! I'm not talking about crazy human filled emotion, I am talking about a real God that is showing up BIG time.  Our finances are beginning to look slightly up.  I am so ready for our future.  I have so many things to be grateful for.  I have reached a new level of personal security that I will continue to climb.  I have relationships that are fruitful. 

I KNOW THAT EVERY OUNCE IS GOD!  I lift him higher above every other name and take no credit for myself! I give Him all the credit!  Our walk and struggles, I'm sure, are far from finished, but I know that we have faced a great deal of obstacles and I am choosing to live through the victory, however big it may be.  By golly, I lived through the struggles so I am definately going to soak up the victory while it lasts! PRAISE GOD.

Oh, I want to say how joyful my heart is at the many people in and around HSM.  I see nothing but uphill climbs and gigantic futures.  I know that I'm smack dab in the middle of history making!  I absolutely love everyone around me.  I am also proud to say that HSM is so on fire for God that fakers quickly get identified and exposed.  I'm so glad that our "God-filters" are ON.

Hannah

"Those that are of a fretful spirit, and are apt to lay provocations too much to heart, are enemies to themselves, and strip themselves very much of the comforts both of life and godliness."

The above statement came from the commentary that I was reading on the story of Hannah.  Hannah had double favor because of her current bareness.  She had the sincere love of her master in both private and public, yet she could not let go of her infirmity.  Without her inability to have children, she would have never experienced the divine favor that she had gained.  However, she still remained ill at heart. 

I know I have been guilty of this so many times.  I have so many things that are going for me.  God ALWAYS gives me double for my trouble; however, I still seem to wallow in the negative that was used to bring forth supernatural giftings.  How is it that God has allowed me to want to remain focused on what I don't have?...especially when it is the very reason for all of the supernatural favor that I do have. WOW This is such a revelation to me.

God, I pray true and unabated deliverence from this.  I know it will take You to do it.  I lay it down, so I am trusting that you burn it as an offering unto You.  I don't want to be an enemy to myself any longer.  I want to inhabit the praises that will rise to call you Blessed.  I thank You for exactly what I do have and will think of this when I see "In EVERYTHING give thanks to God."

Enough Said...

I have definately been going through a season that feels like I'm being tried and pressed in everything that I do.  I know it is a season to be taught, because everything in my life is great.  I have a great marriage and a job that I LOVE.  We have been tested in so many ways, that sometimes I just feel like I have nothing to offer because my sight to God is blinded by all of these minute problems. 

I read Genesis 33, and it inspired me!  It says, "Take, I pray thee, my gift that is brought to thee; because God hath dealt graciously with me, and because I have enough. And he urged him, and he took it."  I know this particular verse doesn't have much to do with my current season, but it makes me understand that God's favor is NOT dependant on my excess, but rather on the favor that I have in His sight.  So many times I have been guilty of thinking that blessing people will come when I experience excess.  God is showed me here that we ought to give when we are in ENOUGH not EXCESS.  Why?  Because He has dealt gracisously with us!  In Hebrew, enough meant ALL and gracisously meant FAVOR.  Therefore, because God favors me, I will bless others because I have all!

Thank You, Jesus, for this revelation of what giving means.  I have always been a giver, but this redefines what it means to me.  Lately, I have realized what a lonely place giving can be.  A true giver has no true return except that which is stored in heaven.  I am so glad that I am storing up my treasures in heaven.  Why or why do I get discouraged at not seeing rewards here on earth.  I want them in heaven....so shame on me for not knowing that!

Although I am still feeling such a pressing, I am choosing to be as imPRESSionable as possible, lest this season be wasted.  If I'm here, I WILL come out knowing something I never have in a real and unmistakable way.  No matter the weapon, I will overcome it.  The following story and song is my current battle cry!..

Desert Song

Changes

God has picked me up from almost everything that I know as comfort and familiarity and has put me in a new location.  As He takes the blindfold from my eyes, I am discovering what His will is for my future.  There are so many possibilities that lay before me that it almost overwhelms me.  I see fields of sheep that need tending and tons of beauty to behold; however, my feet remain planted where I stand.

Before I am able to pertake of this new place, there are some major changes that I need to make. God won't let me move forward in a shell that isn't pleasing to Him nor myself for that matter.  I need to change my outward vessel into something that I feel comfortable living in.  It's like trying to workout in a sunday dress with panty hose and dress shoes.  I need to cultivate my inner beauty so that the beauty of others is no longer a threat.  I need to know who I am so that others will only be able to influence me for the better as I choose to do so.  I need to govern myself so that if one part of this field I see is of governship, I will be ready.  I need to love myself so that my face will not blend into the crowd.  If God is love, then if I don't love myself I am squeezing God out instead of clearing out weeds to make room for Him.

I so long to wander in this field and behold all of its possibilities.  It is a field that I don't think that I will want to leave.  Greener grass doesn't exist beyond it, and fullfillment is waiting for me there. 

I am on the way to this change with the grace and power of God. :)