My heart today is in meditation of how dreams shall come to pass. God has spoken in ways lately that I can hardly believe. As I'm sitting here, I am relistening to the teaching of Rebecca Greenwood. I have enrolled, as directed by God, in her class on spiritual warfare. I had no idea what I was getting myself into! For real. If God didn't tell me to enroll, I would have hit the ground running after the first meeting!
To say the least, it has changed my life. If this topic interests you, check out her book, Authority to Tread.
It is an intercessors guide. What she is teaching in the class is based on this book but also on other topics! I know people that require their teams to read and study this book before going out into Satan's territory.
This past friday, I spoke on Beauty at the Titus 2 class through One Voice at our church. I enjoyed it immensely and know the Lord showed up. I attached my notes below if you would like to see them. :)
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Beauty
PRAY
Webster says that beauty pleasurably exalts the mind and spirit. If we come back to the meaning of beauty, we will notice that beauty affects inward senses…not outward. So today, I want to redirect my efforts into pursuit of a beauty that exalts the minds and spirit.
I was in Dillard’s with Melissa Perkins. We happened to come upon a manikin …or so I thought a manikin. You see, I assumed it was a manikin because it was standing where all of the manikins have stood in the past. This object was still and posed as though it were a real manikin. However, I couldn’t help but notice that this manikin looked a little different. I walked a little closer….closer…closer. I begin to become enthralled with figuring this out. I literally put my face two inches from the leg. I called out, “Boy Melissa, this manikin has a lot of meat on her!” I, for a brief second, consider looking up the dress of this object. Thank goodness, my attention was pulled elsewhere. Melissa and I begin to walk away browsing at clothes that we would never pay that much money for! Out of the corner of our eyes, we see it start to move and talk to people. Needless to say, I darted behind the nearest rack of clothing and began to laugh hysterically! I then realized all the crazy stuff I had done to this live person! Oh my.
Well, the point of this story is that so often we want to step up and into a silhouette of what we would all love to believe is beauty. Wouldn’t it be so easy for beauty to be captured by makeup, hair, and clothing? That woman had stepped out of her own authenticity and stepped into a shallow object that displayed things of this world that so many have begun to believe is beauty. This sweet lady had begun to hide behind a display of clothes, jewelry, and makeup. I don’t know about you, but I can think of many times where I attempted the same to escape insecurities that my own appearance had shown.
I have had a revelation from God that it is time for us to define beauty in the world. I can almost see God looking down on so many of you passionate women that are still in waiting for a husband. I can see how lovely you are and how blessed a man of God will be to have you. But you know, the inward pull and search for beauty doesn’t end when that one special man finds you. If beauty isn’t an understood reality with your individual relationship with the Lord, then how could we expect a man to make us feel what we have not yet even found in God? As a married woman, I have recently learned the danger of expecting your husband to fulfill what should ultimately be a God-role.
So, let me share with you what the Lord has shown me about encompassing and exhibiting real beauty.
As I begun to ask the Lord to reveal to me what He would have me to say, He clearly brought me to the story of David in 2 Samuel 1. In 2 Samuel 1, we see the story of how David deals with the death of his enemy, Saul. We also see the picture of how he copes with the death of his best friend and the son of Saul, Jonathan.
An Amalekite messenger comes to David at his camp to inform David that Saul and Jonathon have been killed. Let’s remember that David is Saul’s successor and Saul had, at one point, had even hired 3,000 men to kill David. David’s response was that he would not kill Saul, but he would let the Lord decide. So the messenger began to inform David of Saul and Jonathan’s death. Saul had been in battle and was speared by his own sword along with his son. However, his life was hanging in the balance. Biblical theologians believe that in the “inconvenience of his clothes; that his coat of mail which he had for defence, or his embroidered coat which he had for ornament, hindered him, that he could not get the spear far enough into his body, or so straitened him, now that his body swelled with anguish, that he could not expire. Let no man’s clothes be his pride, for it may so happen that they may be his burden and snare.”
So the messenger was at the scene in close proximity to Saul. Saul then pleads with the Amalekite to finish killing him as his life was hanging in the balance. The Amalekite then finishes the death of Saul and esteemed himself in being the messenger to David. He then takes the crown and bracelet from Saul as proof to David. “The Amalekite produced that which was proof sufficient of the death of Saul, the crown that was upon his head and the bracelet that was on his arm. It should seem Saul was so foolishly fond of these as to wear them in the field of battle, which made him a fair mark for the archers, by distinguishing him from those about him; but as pride (we say) feels no cold, so it fears no danger, from that which gratifies it. These fell into the hands of this Amalekite. Saul spared the best of their spoil, and now the best of his came to one of that devoted nation”
David then mourns and demands everyone around him to pay respect in mourning for the lives of Saul and Jonathan. “David showed ultimate beauty in honoring Saul’s death with lament and fasting. He also proved that his own life was in pursuit of hiding the fault’s at who once was his very enemy, Saul. David takes Saul’s death personal and bears no bitterness. David celebrated that which was praiseworthy of Saul and as Saul’s body became one with the earth again, so did his reflections upon the personal injuries Saul had inflicted upon him.
David realized that Saul’s life was victorious in the protection of Israel and understood that Saul’s fall was not to degrade the successes of his life.”
Jonathan was very dear to David’s heart, although his enemy was Jonathan’s father. 1 Samuel 18:1 says, “And it came to pass, when he had made an end of speaking unto Saul, that the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul.” David, in the process of mourning, wrote a song about what had taken place, ordering all of the people to know it and have their children know it. Here is where beauty arrives on the scene. “The beauty of Israel is slain on your high places! How the mighty have fallen!
o The word beauty in the Hebrew means glory or honor. What a statement to bestow the entire nation of Israel’s honor and glory to befall on Saul and Jonathon, although Matthew Henry’s commentary states that David is specifically talking about Jonathon through the statement. I can’t help but notice that the beauty David is describing is of how his relationship and association with Jonathon was one that elevated the mind and spirit.
As God has revealed this story of beauty to me, He has also directed me to Matthew 6:25-33.
V. 29 - What God is saying is that there is nothing that anyone can do to clothe themselves in what compares to what the Lord will add unto us when we simply exist and live as ourselves, who He created us to be. Notice that when David wrote the song about Jonathon, calling him the beauty of Israel, the true meaning from the word beauty was glory or honor. Therefore, even Soloman in all his beauty was not arrayed like one of the flowers of the fields.
V. 32 – All these things meaning all of the attributes just describe as what you will be clothed with…beauty.
Beauty for Ashes – “Let us now, like Cinderella, sit down among the cinders(of our old perception of beauty) for awhile in order that we may come forth from the ashes with something better than glass slippers, adorned with a beauty which shall befit the king’s courts! The fairy fable which has often made our childhood smile shall now be actually realized in our own souls—yes, we shall see how far the Truth of God outshines romance! How much grander are the facts of God than the fictions of men!” -Spurgeon
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Something is Better than Nothing
I was just telling someone the other day how theraputic it is for me to blog. It helps me put chase down so many conflicting thoughts and organize them into the proper categories such as: important thoughts, unimportant thoughts, prayer issues, personal issues, and so on... Since the last time I blogged, I think I really have become a different person. I'd like to give credit to myself in being moldable; however, today's trials and blessings will either mold me or break me. I also told someone the other day that was struggling that the only thing that will remain the same in this world is the fact that things will always change.
Since my last blog, I have become more submissive to my husband and a better listener. I had earnestly prayed and prayed to become a woman of grace and meekness. I want to be a soft place for hurt people to land and to re-equip themselves. I'm definately not "arrived" in this category, but I am glad that God is molding me in this area.
I've had prophesy after prophesy about my future. It is an eary feeling to have a call of ministry on your life when it seems somewhat seperate from your husband's calling. I know that at some point in my life, I see a platform. Apparently, God sees it ,too. I know that I did not have this dream on my own. A long time ago, before I knew prophesy was supposed to exist in the church, I heard God tell me as I was praying for the "our" ministry (me as the wife on the pew and Dustin as the preacher). Anywhoo, I heard God ask me, "Jenna, what if I give you the microphone?" I quickly put that thought to the side convincing myself that God was just trying to convince me not to limit my own abilities in God, so I tucked it nice and neat in a corner of my heart. Well, God has DEFINATELY brought it back up through my own connection with Him as well as through prophesy and open opportunities.
Let me get something straight, though. Dustin's ministry is FIRST. I would never do anything to jeopardize his ministry or to limit my ability to be there for him. It would devestate me to be a hindrance to him. When I said my vows, I knew that wherever Dustin would lead is where I would go. If Dustin told me to pack up and move away from a ministry that I was involved in, I would go. However, I have such a strong confidence that my husband's connection to the Lord is real and authentic. He has NEVER made a decision that was not from God directly. I am so proud that he has never depended on a man's input into where he leads his family. He has a direct connection, and I am so thankful. It is also wonderful that God has added a mentor into his life. I'm so grateful in every way that it is the right person at the right time and in the right order.
*Wow, this blog is getting long, and I feel like I have just begun to share what is going on in my life.*
There has been unexpected fear as I have felt a push of promotion from God. I guess when my flesh senses God's movement, I begin to subconciously ask God if He is sure He knows what He is doing. What a silly question, right? I just have to trust that He will always make up the difference! As Kari Jobe says, "I know that You are for Me, I know that You are for me....I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness."
Last week (or so), Dustin and I helped with Collision, a youth camp that our fantastic youth pastors host annually. God moved so strong that my body could not contain it. My good friend described it best as "an open heaven". That's another thing that has happened recently, I have met one of the people that I will probably love till I die. I say that because my heart has connected itself to her...and God telling me I should open up to her is a pretty good indication. ha You know it is true friendship or sisterhood when you really just love that person unconditionally. I also have another relationship like that, but I'll stay more surface.
Yah, back to Collision. I was on the prayer team and God used me! What an honor. It was none of me and ALL of Him. I say that with complete sincerity. I saw two girls seeking the Lord get slammed with the power of God as I released a word over them. I so learned the power of surrender! Now, I must learn how to do what our evangelist knows how to do soooooo well.....WALK in surrender everywhere I go. He is the master at it!
Well, I need to type out the word God has given me for a group of girls, including myself, for Friday night. Hopefully, my friend Melissa will drop by soon.
Thanks for sharing this with me...really.
Since my last blog, I have become more submissive to my husband and a better listener. I had earnestly prayed and prayed to become a woman of grace and meekness. I want to be a soft place for hurt people to land and to re-equip themselves. I'm definately not "arrived" in this category, but I am glad that God is molding me in this area.
I've had prophesy after prophesy about my future. It is an eary feeling to have a call of ministry on your life when it seems somewhat seperate from your husband's calling. I know that at some point in my life, I see a platform. Apparently, God sees it ,too. I know that I did not have this dream on my own. A long time ago, before I knew prophesy was supposed to exist in the church, I heard God tell me as I was praying for the "our" ministry (me as the wife on the pew and Dustin as the preacher). Anywhoo, I heard God ask me, "Jenna, what if I give you the microphone?" I quickly put that thought to the side convincing myself that God was just trying to convince me not to limit my own abilities in God, so I tucked it nice and neat in a corner of my heart. Well, God has DEFINATELY brought it back up through my own connection with Him as well as through prophesy and open opportunities.
Let me get something straight, though. Dustin's ministry is FIRST. I would never do anything to jeopardize his ministry or to limit my ability to be there for him. It would devestate me to be a hindrance to him. When I said my vows, I knew that wherever Dustin would lead is where I would go. If Dustin told me to pack up and move away from a ministry that I was involved in, I would go. However, I have such a strong confidence that my husband's connection to the Lord is real and authentic. He has NEVER made a decision that was not from God directly. I am so proud that he has never depended on a man's input into where he leads his family. He has a direct connection, and I am so thankful. It is also wonderful that God has added a mentor into his life. I'm so grateful in every way that it is the right person at the right time and in the right order.
*Wow, this blog is getting long, and I feel like I have just begun to share what is going on in my life.*
There has been unexpected fear as I have felt a push of promotion from God. I guess when my flesh senses God's movement, I begin to subconciously ask God if He is sure He knows what He is doing. What a silly question, right? I just have to trust that He will always make up the difference! As Kari Jobe says, "I know that You are for Me, I know that You are for me....I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness."
Last week (or so), Dustin and I helped with Collision, a youth camp that our fantastic youth pastors host annually. God moved so strong that my body could not contain it. My good friend described it best as "an open heaven". That's another thing that has happened recently, I have met one of the people that I will probably love till I die. I say that because my heart has connected itself to her...and God telling me I should open up to her is a pretty good indication. ha You know it is true friendship or sisterhood when you really just love that person unconditionally. I also have another relationship like that, but I'll stay more surface.
Yah, back to Collision. I was on the prayer team and God used me! What an honor. It was none of me and ALL of Him. I say that with complete sincerity. I saw two girls seeking the Lord get slammed with the power of God as I released a word over them. I so learned the power of surrender! Now, I must learn how to do what our evangelist knows how to do soooooo well.....WALK in surrender everywhere I go. He is the master at it!
Well, I need to type out the word God has given me for a group of girls, including myself, for Friday night. Hopefully, my friend Melissa will drop by soon.
Thanks for sharing this with me...really.
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